A BREACH OF FRESH AIR
Sometimes you confuse me with other women
scanning our heads in a crowd
I’m not particularly photogenic;
the camera makes me self-conscious
I never learned to pose
Wind fills my puffer on the roundabout
I become airborne on the walk over
Skywriting: a classical artform
The professor thwarted foodborne illness,
but fell victim to zoonotic disease
The randomizer gestures from off-stage
A memory misplaced:
never arriving, but the waiting is the same
Unmoored As if all of childhood’s a dream
or simply never was
SOBER MOMENT
Writing a love letter in poison ivy
You’re in one nostril out the other
Bedsheets a damp apparition
hanging from the door hinge
The more fractal our heartbeats the homier
Exhale dramatically through your nose
Gave away my laundry money
All money is dirty money
I walk through blue and white acrylic
to see how far our footsteps travel
Hoarding hunks of malachite
I’m wearing the apiarist’s gold satin jumper
embroidered with bees and flowers –
and a matching mesh wire mask
GLASS PAVILION
I watered the tulips that wilted overnight
When we sleep in the loft the bad dreams dissipate
Not that it’s not bad but like it’s no big deal
Your subconscious carries a cumulus over us
Slanted walls whisper exhausted prophecies
We were stirring lentils and reading Pinter
Birthday guests rode the freight elevator
Abandoned houseplants pre-stretched canvases
We locked ourselves out on the rooftop
knocking for the ceramicist to let us in
In the night my fears crystallize into daggers
My parched tongue wants for water
The factory window gradient blue
A curled spider falls from my hair
I dreamed I wrote a poem in the shape of a star
Cassidy McFadzean studied poetry at the Iowa Writers’ Workshop and fiction at Brooklyn College. She is the author of three books of poetry: Drolleries (McClelland & Stewart 2019), Hacker Packer (M&S 2015), and Crying Dress (House of Anansi 2024). Recent poems have appeared in Annulet, Hot Pink, and Paperbag.